Tonight I am doing another quick post. I was shooting a night time 5K race in downtown Chambersburg. The Race Against Poverty is a local event that helps fight poverty in our community. I was so proud of how many folks came out to run this race. I was nervous all day collecting rain gear and umbrella’s to prepare for the horrid weather from Tropical Storm Andrea. Our area did not feel the full force of the storm and our many local farmers were thrilled for the rain. The runners were probably happy for the cool weather but the three photographers were all having a fit trying to put together a rig that would keep our prized possessions safe. Luckily the rain stopped just in time for the race to begin and the runners and walkers had a lovely evening race through the town.
I originally signed up to run this race. I was approached by one of the race directors to see if I would volunteer to shoot at the event. Of course I jumped at the chance to help out. All of the photographers are donating their time, expertise and profits from any sales we make from the race photos. The race directors don’t know of our plan. They think we are donating our time and photos for the website. They don’t realize we plan to donate our sales as well. I doubt they will read this post so it won’t spoil the surprise:)
On a less positive note, I have been having a bit of a low day. When I saw the runners racing through in record times, I had a pang of disappointment and yes jealousy. I have had a rough time running lately but I have been training hard. I could have used a great race and ego boost rather than the constant strain and challenges I seem to face in my efforts. I was so proud of the local runners and of my friends who just started running and had fantastic times. It did leave me feeling like I will never improve and I will always be left in the dust, literally. I know things will perk back up and I will start seeing my times improve again but I hope it happens soon. Without being poetic about it, it is bumming me out.
I will let all of this go as it is just a fleeting feeling on a rainy day after a very difficult week. I should be focusing on the good things I did today but I am wrapping myself up in a bruised ego blanket. I have found the best thing to do is go sleep on that blanket and my perspective will change. Good night!