I was looking at some past posts and found this one, Little White Lies, about trying to silence that negative voice that sometimes creeps in during a run.
I still have not silenced this voice, but I do know that there will be bad days out there. And I also know there is no rhyme or reason as to why we have them, or at least, why I have them.
My consistency this year has helped, but I think I’ll battle this voice for as long as I continue to run.
One of the things I pointed out in that post was this: I let that little voice inside my head dictate too many decisions. More often than not, it’s just the build up of excuses: I’m not fast enough or strong enough; I’m too tired; it’s harder than what I’m ready to take on; I won’t like making a change; I don’t have time.
And that’s where I have made major strides. I have time — even when I’m too tired or feeling weak. I’ve made it through some really hard runs and races. I’ve seen the results; I’ve seen real change — both inside and out.
So while I know I’ll continue to fight off the negatives from this inner voice from time to time, I am not so hard on myself when it comes to having a bad day. I finally figured out that I’m not alone:
“Bad workouts and races — we all have them and we always will. Accept that the body has an ebb and flow that we don’t quite understand. Some days you just feel ‘off.’ As hard as it is to accept a bad workout or race when there are valid reasons, it’s doubly challenging when there appears to be no reason at all. I used to worry about this, but now I just shrug it off as the quirkiness of the body and mind. Don’t invest in it or over think it. Move on.” – Greg McMillan
Kristen R .